Friday, May 15, 2015

PAD Day 29 - Nobody Knows

Thought to Action

When he died I thought “Oh shit”,
I did it. 
All those years, I had been saying I hoped he would die,
life would be so much easier. 
I wondered if I could make it happen, like I did when I was 17, and just kidding around,
spoke those words several times, “I hope you die a violent death”. 
Just kidding at the time, never meant it, I loved them both. 
Then at the beginning of summer they were gone, dead in a tragic car accident
– or was it? 
An accident, I mean. 
Did I cause that? 
And then he died, nearly twenty years later, my mantra echoing in my ears
life would be so much easier if he would just die
It is my secret power,
to wish someone dead,
and for it to come true.